Milestones

I am all set for the next Milestone. The journey has begun. I won't think much about anything else. I won't let my focus waver. I'll keep telling myself  "Keep going....I need this more than anything else..my milliarium". And as soon as I cross the milestone, these stupid-stupid ideas in my mind will find another milestone for me. It has been so for 7 long years. I have been travelling and the milestones don't seem to end.

It's been 3 years since I started questioning this habit of mine. Yet the journey has not terminated. I have developed a new notion to make myself believe in this everlasting journey. I have come to believe "The day I stop, my body, my mind, my career will come to a standstill. And it'll all start rotting. The devil's workshop will flourish and I'll start hating myself. I'll stop taking pride in myself. I'll become AIMLESS". "Aimlessness" ??? Is this what I fear? Is this the spiked stick that my mind uses to goad me?

So, am I working out of fear of failures? May be not. I have enjoyed the fruits of success. I have rejoiced every time i reach one of these milestones. I made friends while travelling. I learnt a lot of new things. I am a better person than the one who stopped at the last milestone. I gained a hell lot in this journey. So why stop?